Why This Violence and Blood shed...? Why This Hatred...?

MY MIND HAS BEEN ALWAYS UP ON THE CROSS OF CHRIST,THE CROSS UP ON WHICH THE SON OF JERUSALEM WAS CRUCIFIED , AND I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING THE EXCRUCIATING MENTAL PAIN AND AGONIES  ....!! YES , IT IS TRUTH , THE ONLY TRUTH ABOUT MY MIND....! MY MEMORIES START WITH PAINS...! I CAN NEVER FORGET HOW MY FATHER BEAT ME WHEN I WAS THREE OR JUST FOUR YEARS OLD , BECAUSE I HESITATED TO GO TO NURSERY SCHOOL ...! BECAUSE OF MY MORTAL FEAR OF CLASSROOM TORTURE ,AND  I WANT TO RUN AWAY RATHER THAN GO TO DAY -JAIL..!! SINCE THEN , MY LIFE HAS BEEN  " MY STORY" OF PAINS ,NOT ONLY MY OWN PAINS BUT OTHERS PAINS TOO HAVE BEEN MY PAINS ...! I COULD  NOT  EVEN WITNESS THE SCENE OF TORTURES OF OTHERS,WHO "WERE BEING PAINED BY "OTHERS", OR EVEN BY THEIR OWN PARENTS..!!

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I HAVE BEEN FEELING THE PAIN OF INHUMAN CRUELTIES DONE BY  HUMAN BEINGS AGAINST OTHER LIVING BEINGS...! THE WEEPING AND CRYING AND SOBBING OF HUMAN BEINGS HAVE BEEN UNBEARABLE FOR ME..; I NEVER ATTEMPTED TO THROW STONES AT STRAY DOGS, BUT MY CLASSMATES  LAUGHED AT THE STRAY DOGS WHEN THE DOGS WERE SCREECHING IN TRAUMATIC PAINS....! THE FREQUENT QUARREL BETWEEN MY PARENTS ...; THE MERCILESS TEACHERS WHO WERE "TERRORISTS" TO CREATE TERRIFYING ATMOSPHERE INSIDE CLASS ROOMS OF MY SCHOOL..; THE PARISH PRIESTS WHO WERE "SPIRITUAL PUNISHERS", WHO WOULD IMPOSE "EMERGENCY SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINE" OF EXTREME KIND, AND THEY WERE TOO KEEN TO INDOCTRINATE THE PRINCIPLES OF CHRIST....? THE NUNS WHO WERE TEACHERS TOO , TO TEACH  LESSONS OF TARTARIC LAWS AND ORDERS AND MEDIEVAL CONVENT DISCIPLINE, THE SAME,  LIKE THAT THEY MUST HAVE EXPERIENCED INSIDE THE NUNNERY (THE JAIL FOR GIRLS WHO WANT TO BE A FULLY TRAINED NUN TO SUFFER ALL KINDS OF PERSECUTIONS FROM THE BESTIAL TRAINER CUM GOD MOTHER(S)FOR RECRUITED NUNS WHO WERE (ARE)SUPPOSED TO OBEY ALL ORDEAL ORDERS, INCLUDING TO SHARE THE BED OF BISHOPS AND SEX-HUNGRY PRIESTS AND LESBIANS....? SUCH NUNS WERE PSYCHOS...?)I STILL FEEL THE PAIN OF NUN-TEACHER'S CANE...!! THEY WERE MY CHILDHOOD NIGHTMARE..!!! AND THEY ARE DRACULA BATS FOR ME , EVEN NOW...!!

LOVE , SYMPATHY , EMPATHY , COMPASSION AND HUMANITY WERE MY DAY DREAMS...!! BULLIES AND CLASS ROOM SCOUNDRELS WERE A MENACE, AND I HAD TO SUFFER TOO MUCH HARASSMENT INSIDE SCHOOL CAMPUS....!!

PARTIALITIES AND GROSS, AND BROAD BIAS OF TEACHERS TO THEIR STUDENTS WERE A CULTURE ..? RICH MAN'S CHILDREN HAD PRIVILEGES TO SIT ON FIRST BENCHES AND THEY WOULD GET BEST TREATMENT FROM TEACHERS...!!THEY WERE ARISTOCRATIC STUDENTS FROM RICHEST FAMILIES.

THE MIDDLE CLASS AND LOWER MIDDLE CLASS AND UNDERDOGS WERE SLAVE STUDENTS, THE VICTIMS OF SOCIAL DISCRIMINATION AND LOW CLASS AND HIGH CLASS SEPARATIONS ....!

SO , I BEGAN TO FEEL THE VIRULENT MIND SET OF TEACHERS ,NUNS AND PRIESTS....!! I STARTED TO EXPERIENCE THE APARTHEID, FIRST IN THE SCHOOL AND I BEGAN TO FEEL MY MIND HAS BEEN  UP ON THE CROSS OF JESUS, THE CROSS WHICH JESUS HAS SURVIVED AND ESCAPED BECAUSE THE HELP OF THE MIGHTY FATHER ...!! JESUS LEFT HIS CROSS OF MURDEROUS TORTURE FOR ME , I SUPPOSE LIKE THAT, AND I HAVE BEEN THE BEARER , AND RIGHTFUL HEIR OF HIS CROSS OF AGONIES ....?

PAIN AND PAIN AND PAIN ,AND  I LOVE TO BEAR THE PAIN FOR OTHERS , BECAUSE I LOVE THEM WHO SUFFER THE TRAUMATIC PAINS OF LIFE , FOR WHOM I LIKE TO BEAR THE PAIN OF CROSS...! JUST FOR MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS....!

BELIEVE ME , I HAVE BEEN ON THE CROSS WHICH JESUS HAS LEFT FOR ME ...!  I HATE THE HATRED ...; I DARE TO CHALLENGE THE CORRUPT POLITICAL POWERS AND BRUTAL POLICE OF TORTURES ..; THE FRAUD BABAS AND DIRTY GURUS ...;  I WANT TO SLAP THE "DARKEST PRIESTS" OF ALL RELIGIONS...;I WANT TO PUNISH THE MASKED DANCERS OF DEMOCRACY...; I WANT TO TERMINATE THE FAMILY POLITICS...; I WANT TO ELIMINATE THE MOST WICKED  COMMUNISTS ...; ALAS..! I AM NOT THE CHRIST OF JERUSALEM ...!

IT RAINS HOT PAINS UP ON MY BODY FROM HEAVEN , I FEEL ...!AND I FEEL IT IS SO IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH MY MISSION...! I AM SORRY ..!BUT I ASK YOU WHY CAN'T WE COME TOGETHER TO FIGHT THE HATRED AND VIOLENCE AND BRUTAL TORTURES AND KILLINGS AND CORRUPTIONS....?

PREM SAGAR FOR AMNESTY INDIA O.r.g